stress stress stress! need better time management! and its only the second week of school :( shucks, better go do my tutorials and homework and all that crap now.so yeah, bye to the computer lol!

p.s I GOT MY NEW MACBOOK! OMG WAITED SO LONG FOR THIS DAY :D
p.p.s HAHAHA I shall hereby promise to take damn good care of this laptop and not hardcore spoil it like my last one :)

Blaze

celebrated birthdays......

lovely rooftop chats :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEITH! hahaha ok I know youre not in this pic but this is the closest to a full group shot that I could find so.... happy birthday! thankful that we all got to meet up and chat and catch up on life and have fun together like how we always do :)

lol just some pics from here, there and everywhere! and...

got to meet up with vans today!! even though it was short but I really, really loved the chat with this dope :)

 missing everyone and loving everyone too! 

tomorrow's no longer gonna be with my og people already, its gonna be with my new classmates! hahaha in a way I'm looking forward to tomorrow, gonna meet new people again. hope this class will be bonded because for some weird reason, I've never really been in a bonded class before.and um, just hope I and everyone are gonna have fun tommorow :)

ever felt like you've been lying to yourself? ever felt like no matter how long and far you run a path, at the end you'll still return to the same person? ever felt like you don't know what exactly you're feeling anymore?

 maybe its... over. 

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hello back,

haiii, yes school life has started already! orientation was awesomeee! I seriously hope the fun won't be over though and that somehow, someway school life will be enjoyable too :)

am so thankful that I got to be in the same school as some people! mmm ok gonna sleep now cuz I'm so tired these days so this is gonna be a superly short post! byez! 

I'll try my best as long as you do the same :)

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Threads of love,

okay so whats new is that I quitted my horrible job!!! hahhaha so happy ^^ Its cny already also, hmmm, it just gets more boring each year for me. It's not a big thing in my family now so yeah just had a simple dinner with my cousins today and tomorrow will be visiting my dad's side of family which is yeah, not chinese haha. So there's really not much hype to my cny :( 

anyhoo I'm seriously stuck in some jet lag mood, there's like no break to my holiday since o'levels ended so it completely doesn't feel like a new year or new start thing and I can't believe around next week Im gonna have that "new start". haha I feel such mixed feelings for everything right now but the feelings are too jumbled up to put into words... hmm I guess I better just enjoy this week ( haha one of the many reasons as to why I quit my job) before I have to switch back to school mode and school life which equals to waking up effing early everyday and studying and caring about things I started to stop caring a few months back where school stopped lol. 

I found out the truth when I didn't even have enough courage to accept it. but I guess its better this way, at least now I can move on. but its so painful, just the thought itself of moving on...I really hate it when I get like this, but I guess it'll all pass and you'll be gone from this tight fit space in my heart reserved for you. 

Always you,

pathetic xiao long bao -.-

dinner@work! ^.^ 

lol just some pics from here,there and everywhere. hmm, its my third day of work and Im already hating my job like crazy and I just hate how working environments are always so bitchy, everyone's like two faced,manipulative and competing with each other. bet even if I'm working a better job in future, it's still gonna be like this because....this is the real world? lol welcome me to reality. 

oh wells, just about one more week and this job can kiss goodbye to me! just about one more week and Im gonna start school too. ugh, everything is happening so fasttt.

I don't deserve so much from you and you don't deserve so little from me. 

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after so long, you finally realised and truth be told, its not too late yet. but I guess its time for me to go, and time for you to find a little more of yourself that you've wasted so much time lost and confused.but... It just sucks; knowing that I will not be able to be there for you anymore in ways that I want to and used to be able to, and what sucks more? The fear I feel....the fear that you wouldn't be there anymore for me too and that its by choice. but even if so, I'd be content if I can be assured that you'll remember me in a way I hope you would ; someone who didn't treat you like how the rest did. 

You my love are gone,

 ok I know pictures are of damn lousy quality but that's because it was taken with my lousy nokia phone lol. anyways, I'm really gonna miss work with u two!! :( hahaha am starting a new job on this coming monday of which Im gonna be working alone and um, just not looking forward to it. haha I can remember us whining about quitting on the first day of work and I remember hating it alot etc. but somehow we ended up working there for one whole month and stacked up on a whole lot of funny encounters. and of cuz after work where we will just sit at the rooftop and chat for hours and watch "flying cars" LOL and the time we trekked through mud and all to have supper! ok fine enough ranting here;  I sometimes really hate how I don't have little attachment to stuff/things/people. 

anyways I submitted my application form for schools already, hmm actually I'm okay with wherever I go  cuz I know I will still end up liking any school! I just hope starting over won't be too hard :) 

Sometimes what we think we really want we don't.

Sometimes what we think we want we really don't.

Sometimes what we think we love we don't.

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